the call

i heard it.

i woke up the day i choose to turn and face all the things i thought were holding me back.

in facing these fears i woke up. i let go, i stood up, climbed my ladder and held myself accountable. when i heard myself saying the same old things i would stop and replay that tape and consciously listen.

i heard my repetitive points and thought of solutions. and i took a step into what seemed like the hard and vulnerable. i revealed authenticity to the people i feared/loved the most. attempted the scariest things. pushed through my own sticky loop thoughts.

and my fear thinned. i saw through it.

of course i still have an ego and am part shadow and light. but the difference is i'm not afraid of myself. 

and most of the time i feel pretty damn good, even on my not so good days. even through frustration i can still see opportunity.

eating well is a key. a major key. i have so much more room in my head with out all that inflammation. i feel so clear, really it is amazing.

what i pray is that everyone around me is choosing to pick up the call too.