i release you back into the all of it so you can be transmuted.
i invite more light to sparkle through my entire being, so i may radiate even more brightly my purpose.
my seed for the past 2 months has been surrender. potent indeed. as i surrender i discover i am softening, into a woman connected to the wild yearning of the truest essence of my soul skin.
i believe in balance, balance is important. synergy is the dance i invoke between my shadow and light selves.
as i embrace vulnerability in my surrender i find a tenderness in my heart that is quiet and gentle and soft. underneath scrapped knees from falling as i learn to fly - better; underneath the bruises of misguided promises and the callouses of weathered habits, i am soft.
never have i been held with so much strength and freedom - who knew i needed it? - who knew i wanted it? - who knew it was possible and that it would propel me into undiscovered territories in the expression of my truest, most authentic self?
i asked for it really. by asking to be met, to be challenged - to walk alive and awake and on. i asked for real, uninhibited, all of it, love.
it's been a deep winter; diving in - all the way in. i'm doing some intense work by feeling it all. especially feeling the scary bits, the bits i have resistance too. discovering patterns my body habits that up 'till now i've considered useful.
decided to add more territory to my inner map. decided to try on new ways of experiencing my life. living into being an updated version of my dream self. realizing i am closer then i have ever been to my best self right now in this very moment. relishing in the sensational life of choice and taking a moment to acknowledge all of this progress all of this growth.
for me solstice of 12/21/12 is a cycle of completion. the end of a time. the tone of the year 2012 has been the death of a fear based ego. i welcome a shift in my own consciousnesses and i recognize how important it is to do so. i can feel it, we are interconnected and i owe it to you to stand true, i owe it to myself...you and i are one.